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[lyceius]

overflow and any starters - the stage is yours!

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[edgeofthelake]

Not like it was. But there's still a little of the old spirit.

[ And because he's got a -- not a sense, more like a feeling. A sadness that doesn't feel like it belongs to him, though it echoes in his body all the same, like calling to like. An outstretched hand he can't reach for. ]

You okay?

[lyceius]

No. But that is the point, I think. This is should be painful, cher.

But I needed this. I'm grateful.

[edgeofthelake]

There's pain and there's pain. But I'm glad you like it. That you still like seeing her.

It was hard for me for a while. I couldn't look at the pictures, couldn't stand to be in the same room as the things we had of hers. Had it all boxed up and put in storage. But I went back eventually. Spent a month just going through it all. Felt like saying goodbye and saying hello again all at the same time.

[lyceius]

She is always smaller than in my memories. Or perhaps bigger?

Did it get easier to see her?

[edgeofthelake]

[ Tempting to lie, but he can't lie about this. ]

No. But I got used to the pain. Made me wish we'd recorded something of her voice. Spent too much time assuming we had more time than we did.